Good morning, and happy Friday!!

The last work day of 2006. I have a feeling that I'm not going to be too productive today. Chances are most people will be gone, so there won't be too much new work coming in. But I have been known to be wrong from time to time. I hope we get to leave early. I have a ton of stuff to get done before I head out of town. I really want this to be a good weekend. I'm sure there will be times when I am down, but I just pray that those times are few and far between.

Well, I am off to get some work done, I hope you all have a fun New Years!!!

Good Morning to you all!!!

I would like to apologize for all of the depressing posts over the past week or so. I can't keep talking about everything like that, or I will never be able to move on.

Well, it's Thursday, one more day, and I am off to Fargo! I can't wait. It's going to be soooo nice to get out of here for a while. Just to be able to let loose and not worry about anything. I can worry about things when I get back.

I hope everyone had a great Christmas!!, and I hope your New Year will bring you all a new outlook on the possibilities of 2007. I know that this next year is going to be completely different, then I had imagined, but I know it's going to be filled with all sorts of good times, as well as bad times. That's how life works, if everything were good all the time, then there would be no reason to change, and change is a necessary part of life.

I will be back tomorrow, but if you aren't here, have a great New Years!!!

Not feeling too good this morning. I'm fine physically but mentally I am just drained. I need to learn to get past all this crap. I can't sit and dwell on it, other wise I'm just going to be bitter about this my whole life. Chances are I will be bitter for a long time, but if I don't learn to deal with this, then it's just going to consume me. God doesn't want us to dwell on the past, he wants us to learn from our pain, and move on. I learn a ton from my anguish, but it's the moving on part that I have problems with. there are a ton of things that I have never really moved on from, and I am still bitter about them. And I know that this thing is going to be even harder to get over. So I just pray to God that I can finally move on, and leave all these bad memories and feelings in the past. If I don't, then I am going to have issues when the next person comes around. Thanks for listening, and have a great day!!

Good morning!! Well, here we are again. I hope everyone had a good Christmas!! Did you all get everything you wanted? hehe..

My Christmas was kind of crappy, made me realize what I don't have anymore. This Christmas was very hard on me. I didn't tell my extended family about the ugliness, because I didn't want to put a damper on their holiday spirit. Then my little cousins kept asking where she was, then the oldest girl(Jenna) came up to me and said that I have to give Kassy the Christmas present they had for her. The kids wrapped it and even made the bow themselves. But when I read the little home made card, I almost broke down. It was very difficult, and that's when I finally realized that her heart belongs to someone who isn't me, and that's the way it is, and I have to deal with it.

This has been harder on me than I could have ever imagined. But I know I need to be strong!! God helped me through this holiday, and he's going to continue to help me, and always be there. Even if I don't feel him. It's when we don't think he's there at all, when he's there the most.

I can't wait till this weekend. I am going to Fargo with my Brother and my friend Troy! We are getting a really nice hotel room, and we are going to whoop it up!!!! Then on Saturday we are spending the day ice fishing. I can't wait, it'll be so nice to let loose and forget for a little while.

Well, I hope you all have a great day!! God Bless!!!!

Today isn't such a good day. I am so down this morning. I know these feelings will leave me, as they all did in the past. I am going to be ok, it's just that right now is pretty hard. Please don't feel bad for me. Life has a strange way of making a person forget, and begin to heal. I knew these feelings of worthlessness and self pitty would come eventually. The past day or two haven't been very bad at all, and I knew the bad feelings were around the corner. As the day goes on, I will begin to realize that I am not worthless, and that I am a great person and a catch!

Well, I know God wants me to feel good inside, and He will let me know my worth. The evil one is dragging me down, and making me feel like a piece of crap. And I'm not going to let him control my life like last time. I will survive, for as long as I know how to love, I know I'll be alive!! hahaha....I'm such a dork!

Have a good day everyone, and a very MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

It's Thursday again. It's like my Friday because I have tomorrow off!!! Not sure what I'm going to do now, I had planned on going to the cities for some winter parade, but that was before all the ugliness. So, I will probably work out, hang around, and do some laundry. Seems to be another typical day off for me.

Well, it's over. I was super curious to see if I was going to be told the truth, and definitely not! The only way I got the truth out of her, was to poke and prod. I knew everything already, I just wanted to see if she had enough respect to tell me herself. Apparently, she and this other guy are just going to be friends because she needs to be single. What a bunch of malarkey. I was on his myspace page, and as soon as we were over, he put her up as his #1 friend. hmmmm.

Oh well, life goes on. But I have to say that after it was done, I felt this feeling of relief that it was over. Not the relationship, but the whole waiting and sickness that went with it. So, I can now move on.

I would just like to close with a little prayer:
Dear Lord, I come to you right now a broken shattered man. And I would like to thank you so much for all the support, strength, courage, and now finally some peace. You have given me so much, so many good things and people in my life. I couldn't have made it through this without you and all the support you've given me, so I say thank you again. Amen

Well, it's Wednesday. The day that is going to change my life forever. I've been very sick of this waiting business, and I am just ready for everything to be done. I know what's going to happen. I know everything that has happened, so the real surprise is if I get told the truth.

Trust is a big thing. If there is no trust, then there is no relationship. How can I be with someone that I can't trust? I have never been given a reason to trust, only reasons to not trust.

God has a plan for me, and I know whatever it is, is going to be the best for me. God doesn't want me with someone that has no respect for me. He wants someone that is going to treat me like the catch I am. With respect for me and my feelings. Someone that is going to accept me for who I am, not for what college degrees I have, or how I like to talk to them through out the day. Just someone who is content with who I am. And I know God has this person waiting for me. But the biggest thing, is they have to be willing to listen to my thoughts, and work hard to make things work. Nothing is going to be perfect, and people who think they are, are just setting themselves up for disappointment.

Good morning everyone!

I am sorry for yesterday's post, but I had no desire to share what I am going through. Because it's not easy to talk about. I'm still not going to give details, because it's still not something I really want to share at this time. I know what's going to happen, and there's nothing I can do to stop it. This whole thing makes me sick, literally. I can't hardly eat anything, and when I do, I just want to throw it up. And every morning, I do throw up. And that sucks because there is nothing there to come out. It's like I was so sure where my life was going, then all of a sudden it's going in the complete opposite direction. But I do have a comforting feeling about all of this, it's not my fault. God has blessed me with so many good people and people who truly care about me, and won't drop me when some thing else comes by. And He has been giving me so much courage and strength to do what I need to do. So, now I just have to pray for patience.

I hope you all have a wonderful day!!!

I'm not in a blogging mood today at all.

If anyone wants to know how I am doing, please just ask me.

Thanks, and have a good day!

Happy Friday!!! That's right, it's the end of the week. Just have to get through a day of work, then it's time to play.

I am going to St.Cloud tomorrow to see my girlfriend!! That's really going to be nice, because I get to see her like once every couple of weeks. So, that'll be fun. Oh, and I am riding down there with her grandma. She really wanted to come with. That won't be too bad. I like her, she's a super nice lady.

Then on Sunday, I don't really have any plans. I was thinking about going down to see my brother, but I'm still not sure. So, that's pretty much my plan for the weekend.

Oh, did you know??
It is estimated that 400,000 people become sick each year from eating tainted Christmas leftovers

Have a great weekend!!

I am tired this morning. And I have a headache. Today is not starting out the best. But oh well, I'm sure I'll make it through. But on the bright side, it is Thursday! We're that much closer to the weekend. And I'm that much closer to seeing my baby!!!!!!!

Well, time to get some work done.

Oh, did you know??
Public intoxication is a crime in Pennsylvania but specifically not a crime in Minnesota.

Have a great day!!!

Angry Robert has shown up today. I haven't seen angry Robert is a very long time. To be honest, I kind of miss him, but I know the angriness won't stop all day!! I can already tell that he's going to be whining and complaining about things that aren't even relevant to why he's mad.

I would rather hear him talk about his $10 watch from Wal-Mart some more.

Oh, did you know?
A traditional Christmas dinner in early England was the head of a pig prepared with mustard.

Have a good day!

The Story of how The Christmas Tree Angel came about

Santa was very cross. It was Christmas Eve and NOTHING was going right. Mrs Claus had burned all the cookies. The elves were complaining about not getting paid for the overtime they had while making the toys. The reindeer had been drinking all afternoon and were dead drunk. To make matters worse, they had taken the sleigh out for a spin earlier in the day and had crashed it into a tree.

Santa was furious. "I can't believe it! I've got to deliver millions of presents all over the world in just a few hours - all of my reindeer are drunk, the elves are on strike and I don't even have a Christmas tree!

I sent that stupid Little Angel out HOURS ago to find a tree and she isn't even back yet! What am I going to do?"

Just then, the Little Angel opened the front door and stepped in from the snowy night, dragging a Christmas tree. He says "Yo, fat man! Where do you want me to stick the tree this year?"

And thus the tradition of angels atop the Christmas trees came to pass........

Good morning!! I hope you all had a good weekend! Mine wasn't too exciting. I stayed home most of the weekend, and cleaned. I also did some laundry. So, not very exciting. I lead a very uneventful life. But it's almost Christmas time!!! And that's the time of year that we all get free days off!! Well, there are other times in the year that happens too, but this time of year, we get Christmas, and New Years days off.

I am going to finish my holiday shopping on Saturday. I've gotten almost everyone on my list done. I am going to St.Cloud, but as a huge bonus, I get to see my sweetheart!!!! Although her Grandma is coming with, I will still get to see my wonderfully sweet amazing girlfriend. Plus I like her Grandma, she's super sweet.

Oh, did you know??
According to statistics, Australian women are most likely to have sex on the first date.

Well, time to act like I'm working for another 7.5 hours. Have a great day!!

Guess what? It's Friday again!! Sweet!!!

Well, I had my interview yesterday. I think it went very well! They asked me a bunch of questions, and I answered them perfectly. The IT guy that was there asked me a "technical" question. He said it was kind of difficult, and that many of the applicants didn't know what to do. It was a scenario, where a computer wasn't able to go to any website by DN. But it could ping everything in the world by IP address. What would a technical person look at in this situation? I was thinking "most people didn't know this?" If that's the case, then I'm a shoe in!!

Did you know?
Most elephants weigh less than the tongue of the blue whale.

Have a great weekend!!

Oh and the thing I would check first is, the DNS settings, under the IP properties. Because it's obviously a DNS issue. duh......

Sorry for the late post. I couldn't get into blogger until right now. So, I basically forgot what I was going to blog about.

I have tomorrow off, because I have a job interview at 10:00am. I sure hope I get it, because It will be a huge step in my career, and it will also be a ton more money. So, if anyone is praying for me, please include my interview. Thanks, and maybe I'll blog tomorrow when I get home to tell you all how it went.

Have a great night!!

Sleep is good.....

Happy Monday,

Not too much going on here. Canopenner called in sick today, but it doesn't look like today will be too busy. I mean, I have a ton to do, I was just thinking of the other guys. Well, it finally snowed here. Very fluffy snow. The roads weren't too bad this morning, but it seems like when the first snow comes, everyone forgets how to drive. Oh well, they'll get the hang of it.

Oh, did you know??
Women who went to college are more likely than high school dropouts to enjoy both the giving and receiving of oral sex.
~sweet~

hehe....Have a great Monday!!

Good morning, and happy Friday!!

Last night was my companies Christmas get together, shindig thing. It was pretty fun. They also had awards for the employees who go above and beyond their expected rolls. Unfortunately, I didn't get one, but my good friend canopenner got one!!!! GREAT JOB CANMAN!!!!! If there was only going to be one award given out, I know it would have been him. When his name got called, the entire place gave him a standing ovation!! I almost had tears in my eyes. And the great thing about him, is he was so humble about it. The mark of a true hero.

Did you know??
In 1985, Nintendo, Transformers, Ewoks, and the Pound Puppies, were the most popular toys.

Have a great weekend!