Good morning!! Well, here we are again. I hope everyone had a good Christmas!! Did you all get everything you wanted? hehe..

My Christmas was kind of crappy, made me realize what I don't have anymore. This Christmas was very hard on me. I didn't tell my extended family about the ugliness, because I didn't want to put a damper on their holiday spirit. Then my little cousins kept asking where she was, then the oldest girl(Jenna) came up to me and said that I have to give Kassy the Christmas present they had for her. The kids wrapped it and even made the bow themselves. But when I read the little home made card, I almost broke down. It was very difficult, and that's when I finally realized that her heart belongs to someone who isn't me, and that's the way it is, and I have to deal with it.

This has been harder on me than I could have ever imagined. But I know I need to be strong!! God helped me through this holiday, and he's going to continue to help me, and always be there. Even if I don't feel him. It's when we don't think he's there at all, when he's there the most.

I can't wait till this weekend. I am going to Fargo with my Brother and my friend Troy! We are getting a really nice hotel room, and we are going to whoop it up!!!! Then on Saturday we are spending the day ice fishing. I can't wait, it'll be so nice to let loose and forget for a little while.

Well, I hope you all have a great day!! God Bless!!!!