Hello people, How are you doing today? Good? That's great.

It's Wednesday, only three more days of work. Then I am off to the cold windy city of Fargo. It's just my luck, the coldest days of the year, and I decide to move on those days. A high of -5, that doesn't sound like too much fun. Moving sucks anyway, then throw in super cold weather. Oh well, It'll be ok.

I was having dinner with this couple from the church last night, we usually have dinner every Tuesday, and I realized that life is good right now. Things seem to be coming up Moodkiller. New job, new apartment, new girls. I am loving the single life!! There are a few girls that would like me to not be single, but I am enjoying it too much, and I would like to stay single for a while. With all that's been going on, I think it would be a good idea. But it's been nice, I've regained my confidence and my self worth, and I'm pretty sure that's attracting new a beautiful people. I'm enjoying life, and looking to the future. Life is good. It's a nice change after I thought life without someone would not exist, or just be very crappy. I've since realized that I don't need someone to be happy, or to better myself or to better my career.

I took all my personal files off my work computer yesterday. I didn't realized I had so much crap on there. I went to Best Buy and got a small portable hard drive. Only 80GB. Well, after I got all my stuff on there, I noticed that I had 17GB worth of personal stuff. Not sure about you, but I think that quite a bit. But it's easy to accumulate that much when your boss copies every episode of south park on there, and when another guy copies 10+ movies on there. The space just adds up. Now I can take all that stuff, and bog down my new computer at my new job!!

Well, I am going to try and get some work done, I'm finding it a little tough to stay motivated. Have a great day, and I'll be back tomorrow.

The days are going by way too fast. I am such a procrastinator. I did get a bunch of stuff done last night, but I could have gotten much more accomplished. But I do have a few more evenings to get things squared away before the big move. But I can't rely on those days to get it done, other wise I will just be up all night on Thursday getting my crap organized and packed.

As you can imagine, I am pretty excited about all of this. Everything in my life is so new, and unknown. I kind of like it, but to be honest it will be nice to get into a new routine.

Well, I'm going to get some work done, you all have a great day, and I will talk to you tomorrow!!

Here we are again, the start of the new week. And it's the first day to my last week here at my current job, and my last week in this town.

Well, I found a place to live this weekend. I was hoping to be able to look at some more places, but I had to cancel some of my appointments because after I got done looking at this one place, the guy noticed I had a flat tire. That sucked, but I wasn't too worried. I could have changed it myself, but again, I ran into the issue with no jack, plus it was super cold and super windy that day. So AAA came and towed me to the shop and had it patched up. But the place that I had decided on has pretty much everything that I was looking for. Washer and dryer, dishwasher, walk out patio, and a fireplace. I like the place, but it is a little smaller than I would have liked. And the Appliances are old. Oh well, I will probably only be there for 6 months anyway.

So everything is all set up for me to move on Saturday. I am pretty excited. It's going to be an interesting adventure. So, I just pray and hope everything goes ok. I'm sure it will though.
Have a great day!!

Here we are again, the start of the new week. And it's the first day to my last week here at my current job, and my last week in this town.

Well, I found a place to live this weekend. I was hoping to be able to look at some more places, but I had to cancel some of my appointments because after I got done looking at this one place, the guy noticed I had a flat tire. That sucked, but I wasn't too worried. I could have changed it myself, but again, I ran into the issue with no jack, plus it was super cold and super windy that day. So AAA cam and towed me to the shop and had it patched up. But then place that I decided on has pretty much everything that I was looking for. Washer and dryer, dishwasher, walk out patio, and a fireplace. I like the place, but it is a little smaller than I would have liked. And the Appliances are old. Oh well, I will probably only be there for 6 months anyway.

So everything is all set up for me to move on Saturday. I am pretty excited. It's going to be an interesting adventure. So, I just pray and hope everything goes ok. I'm sure it will though.
Have a great day!!

Well, another week has come and gone. And I'm that much closer to getting out of here.

I am soooooo tired today. I really need to make myself go to bed earlier at night. Going to bed at 2:00am, then trying to wake up at 6:00am is not fun. But it's my own fault.

Tomorrow I get to find a place to live. I think I might just get some run of the mill place. That way I could save some denero. I really want a place with a balcony. I've never had one before so I think it would be kind of cool.

Wish me luck this weekend, and I will be back on Monday to let you know how it goes. Have a great weekend!!

Good morning people!

One more day till the weekend. I tell you, these last days here in Brainerd are going by so fast. It almost seems like it's not real, but it is most definitely as real as it gets. I am looking forward to this weekend, tomorrow some friends and I are going out to celebrate my new adventure. I wonder if they're celebrating my new job, or the fact that I am leaving? hahaha

Saturday I am going to Fargo to try and find a place to live. I hope I can get into a good place on such short notice. This is all too exciting. I won't lie, it is sad leaving. From the moment I got to Brainerd, I told myself that this town sucked, and I hated it. I believed that for a very long time. But somehow, without me knowing it, this town really grew on me. I realized last night that there will be a ton of people that I'll miss. I thought I couldn't live here because of the bad memories, but that's just rubbish. I will miss so many good people, and I didn't realize how much I will be missed. Oh well, life goes on and we can't look back on the past with regret. I used to regret somethings, but everything happens for a reason. So It's hard for me to look back and not be happy.

Thank you all for reading everyday and thank you for all your support with this.
Have a great day!!!

~sigh~

I don't know what's wrong with me today. I am in a very "down" mood. I hate this. I'm just struggling with life in general.

Lately everything seems to be, literally, falling in my lap. Everything that I have or am about to have, is so easy. But for some reason I'm not happy about it. I feel like since everything is so good, that it can't be true. And being I haven't worked very hard for these new things, that they aren't necessarily the best for me. I know I'm thinking and talking gibberish. Everything that's been going on is going to be the best for me right now.

I think most of this destructive thinking, can be blamed on the fact that I haven't been getting much sleep. And I am so tired, and then I start to think negatively. I bet if I was able to take a nap, I would feel better about everything. Thanks for listening, and just keep praying for me, I know I will.

Good morning. Not so sure how good of a morning it really is, but I'll wish it to you none the less.

Well, I did it. My last day of work is Feb. 2nd. And I move to Fargo the next day. Man, there is a ton of stuff on my mind that has nothing to do with my new job or moving. I don't know how to explain it, but I am definitely not over my ex. I thought I was, but I'm not. I am getting there though. And I've had a ton of help. Nice people helping me through, and females giving me more attention then I've ever gotten. But most of all there is one person who really helps, but she doesn't know it. She is helping me find an apartment this weekend. She has such an uplifting personality. I haven't told her about my past relationship yet, but I will definitely let her know what's going on in my head. I am excited to spend some time with her, and get to know her more. And who knows what's going to happen. I am so thankful for everyone God has given me in my life, and all the support I've gotten from all these wonderful people.

So, please just keep thinking and praying for me, as I am still trying to figure myself out, and who I need to be. I know I will get there, and It's by the grace of God that I do. So, thank you everyone so much for everything.

p.s. Why does no one comment anymore? It makes me sad. Oh well, I'll still be blogging without any comments. Have a great day!!

Good morning, and happy Monday to you all!!

I am not really looking forward to what I have to do today, but it needs to be done. I am going to let my boss know that I won't be working at this place for too much longer. That's right, I've decided to take the Job in Fargo. It took some careful thinking and planning, but I feel like it's going to be the best thing for me, and also my career. See, I don't need to have a four year degree to get a good job. But yes, It would help. After this new job, I will have the experience to pretty much trump the fact that I only have a two year degree. So I got that going for me.

I am going to Fargo this weekend to look for a place to live. With this new job, I will be able to get a pretty nice place. I am so excited for this!! I have to call the new employer today and let them know what's going on. I told them I would let them know, if I take the job or not, today. Please wish me luck, and keep me in your prayers. This is a very big deal to me, and I just know that this is going to be better.

Thank you, and have a great day!!!

Happy Friday everyone!!!!

I'm sure you're all dieing to know how my interview went. Well, I think it went very well! The lady that was supposed to interview me we sick, so I had my interview with the lady who does the second interviews and who ultimately makes the finally decision. And I made a very good impression on her. She told me that I would be the only IT person. So I would be doing it all!! There are some pros and cons to that. But the pros would far out weight the cons. It would give me some very good experience with a ton of different stuff. But on the bad side, everything would fall on my shoulders. But it doesn't seem like more than I can can handle.

I really hope I get it. It would do me so much good to get out of here. They said they have one more interview today, and that it would be between him and I. They also said they would call me either sometime today, or definitely by Monday. So, I will know some more by the end of the day on Monday.

Thank you all for your good luck wishes, and all your prayers. I have to go to work now. But on the plus side, it's Friday!!! Have a great weekend. I know I will!

Today is the big day! Wish me luck!!!

Good morning everyone.

I called in sick today. I was up most of the night in the bathroom. Not too fun. I feel kind of bad, because there was a few things that I needed to get done today at work. Oh well, I'm sure they'll understand.

Tomorrow is the big day. I have my interview in Fargo at 1:30. I'm kind of nervous, but very excited at the same time. They seemed very interested, and it would do me so much good to get out of my current situation. The situation being, my current job, and the bad memories that go along with this town.

I am so sick of these little games that people play. I don't get how people can be so childish about things. Lets wish someone good luck, then block them on MSN. Oh well, I don't need that crap.

Have a great day, and I'll be back on Friday with an update!!

Good morning everyone!

I went to my friend canopenner's house last night, and his kids were baking cookies. The cookies looked perfect. Just the right size and consistency. And they weren't burnt at all. The only thing is, that they used two different kinds of chocolate chips. One kind was mint chocolate swirls, and the other kind was raspberry chocolate swirls. Now I don't know where people came up with the idea to make raspberry chocolate swirl chips, but they were disgusting. Mix em with mint and you have a horrid tasting cookie.

Thursday is fast approaching, and I really need to bone up on some material. I don't want to go in there looking like a fool who doesn't know what he's talking about. do you know what's going on then yet?

Have a great day!!

Good morning and happy Monday!! Is there such a thing as a happy Monday? I think there can be.

Well, this weekend was sure interesting. I went out dancing with some friends on Friday night. Let me just say I won't be doing that for a while. I got a little tipsy that night, and spent a better part of Saturday recovering. Oh well, I made my bed, so I had to lay in it. Other than that, dancing was super fun. I saw one person that I knew there, and at one point it was me and four good looking ladies. Made me feel like a stud...hehe. Sunday was just a day for lounging around. I really didn't do too much, except wash some clothes, and jogged for about 20 minutes.

I am very excited for Thursday!! I'm not going to say why, but as the week goes on, I will give out little hints. I'm sure most f you probably already know whats going on.

Have a great day, and I will be back tomorrow with more. I know you all are just dying to read a new post, and it might be the highlight of your day. Probably not, but a guy can be wishful right?

Another week come and gone. Life really seems to be kicking my ass right now. I hate it, I hate this feeling of worthlessness. Like I am no good. But I know that's not true, I am good. Everyone else can see it, then why is it so hard for me to see it?

I am a little irritated right now because of my watch. I got this watch for my birthday about two months ago. And it's been working great. I love this watch, but lately, out of no where the darn thing will reset itself. Yesterday it reset like 6 times. I was watching it one time when it happened, and I don't get it. It makes me frustrated because I really like this thing. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to go find a new one, but after this one gets me to the point where I want to smash it. It's been doing good so far today, it stayed set all night!! wow

On another note. I think my roommate went into the hospital this morning. He hasn't been feeling good for a while now, and every year he ends up spending a week or two in the hospital. I was worried that this was going to happen. So I would like to ask you all to keep him in your prayers and that if he really is in there, that he can have a speedy recovery. Have a great weekend everyone, and I'll be back on Monday!

ugh......It's only Thursday.

I really need to get some more sleep at night. I have to stop going to bed at 1:00am. It has been like that for a little while now. I mean, I could go to bed earlier, but I am up talking to people, well one person....hehe

I had a fight with a good friend last night. I'm not going to get into details, but it feels like I've been betrayed by this person. Through all that it made me realize what a true friend really is. A true friend is loyal and trustworthy. And this person didn't show any of that last night. It sucks because a few weeks ago, they were very close to me, and since the ugliness with my ex things have really changed between us. But we talked for a long time about trust and loyalty. They can now see where I am coming from, and slowly my trust for them will come back. Baring another incident like last night

Have a good day, and think about how you are with your friends. And look at who your friends really are!!

What day is it today? Oh, that's right, it's Humpday...hehe

Just a few more days to get through, then it's time for the weekend! I don't know why I'm excited for the weekend, I don't really have too much going on. I might head out down town and see what's going on there. Maybe I'll run into someone I know....hehe. Other than that, not really anything to get excited about, except the fact that I don't have to work. That's always a plus. I know that sometime I will probably have to go over to Rick and Kari's and do somethings to their computer. It's loaded with spyware, and they need me to do something with their ipods. So, not too difficult. I thank the Lord so much for sending them into my life. They've helped me out so much these past few months, and working on their computer is the least I can do.

Right now, life is looking up!! There was a time when I wouldn't even allow myself to smile, but slowly I am getting the joy that I had begun to think was lost forever. And that really puts a smile to my face. I've seen my good qualities, and there are many!! I'm excited about where my life is heading, I thought I had it all figured out, but now it's just a big mystery. I know it's not all going to be good, but I also know that it's not all going to be bad. I have learned to take the bad with the good. Because nothing is good forever.

In other news, they started monitoring internes usage, and blocking certain sites at work. So I won't be on at all anymore. Only to blog...hehe

Have a great day!!!

Well, I had todays post all thought out and ready to go, until I saw something on my way to work that I feel is more important.

On my way here, I could see a ton of flashing lights in the distance. As I got closer, I could see they were police lights, I figured someone got pulled over. Even closer still, I could see even more lights, and I saw a fire truck pull up. That's when I knew it was more serious than a traffic stop. As I approached all the lights, I could see debris and rubble all over the place, and I knew there had been an accident. By this time I could see everything, and a smaller white car smashed to almost nothing. I couldn't see any other cars because of the emergency vehicles, but I know there was at least one more there. I just got done talking to a coworker, and he just went through that same place, and said that someone was on a stretcher covered in a white sheet. That can only mean one thing....

May we all give our prayers and thoughts to the victims of this horrible tragedy today. And let us never forget that no one is promised tomorrow. That really made me realize that life is short, and we must forgive anyone who has wronged us in the past, while we still can. With that said, I must forgive someone before I never get a chance to. So, that is what I will be working on until I completely forgive her. And when I do, I will make it known.

Have a good day, and never forget.....

Good morning!! Did you all have a good weekend? I hope so.

I didn't do too much this weekend. On Friday, I went over to canopenner's house, and spent some time over there, building a line following robot. Aren't we cool?

Saturday, I went Ice fishing with my friend Mike in Breezy and there was the 13th Annual Icefest, they had fireworks at 7:00. That was pretty cool to see the reflection off the ice. Then there was a bon fire we went to. I like fire, there's something about it that mesmerizes me.

Sunday was a little more laid back. I went to church, then came home and did nothing for about 2 hours. That got real boring. So I went for a run. My running lately has been going very well!! I am about to start my training schedule for the half marathon!! Then after that I did some laundry. So nothing too exciting.

Well, I hope you all had a good weekend, and I hope you all have a good start to the week!!

Friday Friday Friday!!! Well, I've made it through another week. And things are getting much easier for me!! I like where I'm going. I am going to just fine. :)

I think I might have met someone!! I'm not going to say too much, because I don't want to jinx it. If anything does happen, it won't be for a long time though. My heart is still hurting quite a bit, but it's healing very nicely. And without too many scars. So, we'll just see what happens. I never really realized that I was so desirable, but lately I've been getting a ton of attention from the fairer sex....hmmmm

Well, have a good Friday, and have a Great weekend!!


Oh, did you know??
Nebraska state law prohibits bars from selling beer unless they are simultaneously brewing a kettle of soup.

Dear Heavenly Father,
I come to you right now, looking for strength, courage, and patience. I pray that you will be able to help me through this rough time in my life. Help me to do what needs to be done in order for me to move on. Lord I know you want me to be patient, but it's just so hard. Please take this pain away. Please take this love I have for her away. I can't keep doing this, it's killing me inside. I pray that you keep your loving hands around me as I work through my pain and anguish. Guide me to where I need to go, what I need to do, and whom I need to do it with. Please help me realize how much better I am without her. Lord, I'm crying out to you, Please help me. You're the only one who can right now.

Amen

Hey, Good morning everyone.

Well, I think today is going to be a bad day. This was the day that I had planned on asking my now ex-girlfriend to marry me. That is, before all this bull crap happened. So, if I seem a little down, I'm sorry. I am still trying to get over this. I really have to talk to her and tell her somethings, but she won't talk to me. And I don't get that, because I know that she's worried that I will never talk to her again. I feel like she at least owes me a face to face conversation, but she wants to be childish about this. I hope that she's happy with what she's done. I could write for days about this, but to be honest, I am getting very sick of it. I just had to let out what today was going to bring. It was going to bring two people together, and begin the unity of two individuals through Christ. I just don't get it.

Good Morning and happy 2007!!!!

My weekend was pretty crazy. Friday night, a bunch of us met in Fargo, and had a great time. We got a hotel room downtown, and walked to about 7 different bars. I ran into some old old friends that I haven't seen since I moved to Brainerd(over three years ago). Got pretty drunk, and I think I did somethings that I'm not so proud of, but I just can't quite remember. I did see two girls make out though. Funny, that's like the only thing I remember vividly....lol.

The next day we(Mike, Troy, and myself) hung around Fargo for a few hours, then drove to my brother's house. Setup some holes for some Ice fishing, but never really fished that day, because it started raining, and it wouldn't stop. So, we went out Sunday morning, to fish. Caught a few fish, nothing too big. Then later that afternoon, we went to my grandpa's fish house. That's where we caught everything. Then we got home, and cleaned fish till about 11:30. Wow, what an exciting new year. Sarcasm..

I hope your long weekends went ok. I'm just going to go, and get ready for work. Have a great start to 2007!!!