Friday is finally here. Although I'm on call this weekend, and there is a good chance that I will have to come into work, but at least the week is pretty much over.

I am really looking forward to going to the cities tonight. I wish I could stay there all weekend, but like I said I'm on call, and it would be hard to reset a password from down there. hehehe

But I am going downtown on Saturday night with some friends, so that should be fun. Then the Vikings are playing on Sunday!! Plenty of stuff going on this weekend.

OK, someone let the cat out of the bag about what show I was going to watch last night. And yes, it is Smallville. That doesn't make me a bad person, just possibly a slightly immature one ;) Have a great weekend everyone!!

It's almost Friday!!! I believe I've found clarity in my life. A ton of hard thinking and praying has gotten me to where I am today. So I got that going for me.

I am really looking forward to tomorrow night. I am going to the cities with my brother, and we're going to a Cloud Cult concert! It's at some small trendy place, I guess. Close to the U of M. And It looks to be a really fun time.

Tonight is the season premier of one of my favorite shows. I'm not going to say what show it is, for fear of ridicule from other people. hehe Hope everyone has as good of a day that I am having!!

Patience, I need to have more patience. One minute I feel like I have everything figured out, then the next minute I am back to being angry and depressed. But I know that ultimately I need to be patient with God and myself. Only he is going to show me my true path. And I think he has started. I know he has started. Thank you God!!

More of the same today. Not sure what to feel, or how to deal with the feelings I have. But I found out that it isn't me! That is kind of a relief. But it is still hard to deal with. I'm still waiting for God to show me his plan for me. One minute I think I have everything figured out, then it's like someone else is telling me different. I'm not too sure what is really my feelings or what God is showing me. But all I can say, is that I am still confused. I know I still love, and I know I still care, but I don't get any of those feelings back. And I haven't for a very long time. And that is causing me to think the things that I have been.

Good morning everyone. I called in sick to work today. I was up all night in the bathroom. Enough said.

This weekend was particularly hard on me. I was just up and down up and down. That's how it all went. I now know somethings that will help me to move on and not be so stuck on what I beleived was the perfect thing for me. I can now see the flaws that seemed to be invisible to me before. And I now realize that I am probably better off. Most likely, tomorrow I will blog something completely opposite of today, but we'll just see.

1:19 am and I'm still up. All my friends have already left, and I don't want to go to bed. Well, actually I do, so that all these negative thoughts and emotions will leave me. Good night to all my fellow bloggers, and to the one who has a special place in my heart.

OK, so I was way off on how nice of a day it was going to be yesterday. That's why I'm a support technician and not a weather man.

I got to eat a good home cooked meal for dinner lastnight. It's been a long time since I ate that good. There was pot roast, potatoes, peas, gravy, and some very good home baked bread. And to top it all off, I got all the left overs!!

After dinner I helped my ex-girlfriends brother fill out a ton of paperwork for him to go to college. I like him, and I look at him as a little brother. He's got an interview with the college today, and I drilled him on the questions they were going to ask, so he would have some idea of what to expect.

Then I was talking to the grandma after all that, and my phone rang. It was my friend Matt who moved to the cities. I knew him from college, and he was in town and wanted me to go bowling with him, his girlfriend and two of her friends. It was nice to get out and get my mind off the problems I've been facing the past few weeks.

I had a pretty busy night, then I got home and watched the season premier of The Office that I TiVoed. Pretty funny stuff!! Hope you all have a good weekend.

Hey hey hey!! Isn't it a beautiful morning? It was a little cold, but I can tell it's going to be a very nice day. I'm sorry for the depressing comments the past few days. I really didn't know where my head was. I can see clearer now, and I can really see that I have to be patient for God to reveal his plan for me. But I am in a good place right now, and I hope I stay this way for a long time.

I am very conflicted this morning. Yesterday I was so completely sure of what I wanted, but now I'm not so sure. I feel like I am being pulled in two different directions. On the one hand, I can go after what I think I want. Or, I can keep doing what I am doing and ignore my heart and all the signs God has shown me. I just don't know what to do. All I know is, that I can't ignore my heart for much longer.

Well, it's been another hard morning for me. I swear, it's getting worse. I pray to God everyday, to help this feeling pass, but he keeps showing me signs that make it impossible. I feel like the signs are telling me to not get over it, but to work harder for him. And if I work harder, the things I want will come to me. I know that sounds crazy, but it's a very comforting thought.

Heart ache, heart ache, heart ache. Why must I be put through so much hurt before I realize that I am better off? It doesn't make sense. I feel like I am starting my life all over again. And I guess it is for the best. The past few days have been awful for me, but it has made me a much stronger person. And it made me realize that I need someone who is going to treat me the same way I treat her. God's plan for me is obviously to live my life for him, and wait patiently for Him to let me know what I need to do and who I need to do it with. He will show me that I need to move on. And move on I will. I don't know what God wants to do with me, but I know that He won't let me suffer as much as I have the past few weeks. I feel like my pain is lifting and I'm so much happier. I will just wait and see what I am supposed to do. Thank you all for dealing with me. And thank you God for helping me.

I got into work this morning.......and it was freezing in here. It still is super cold. The air conditioner in our server room went out and it was like 108 degrees in there. So one of our network guys cranked up the AC in the whole building, the he put fans everywhere to circulate the cold air. I'm sitting here shivering. A great start to a great day. Have a good weekend.

Well, I am back from my day of illness. I hope everyone got along ok without a blog post from me. I know it was hard. Well, I am heading out of town this weekend. First I am going to see my girlfriend at college on Friday night, go to eat then bowling with her friends. Looks like it will be a good time. Then on Sunday, I am going to my brother's place, and we are going to pick out a new basketball hoop for his new house, then we'll install it. So, pretty busy this weekend. Oh, and it's my roommate's birthday today. He's 30!!!! Let's all wish Scooter a happy birthday!!

GO VIKINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you haven't already guessed, the Vikings won their season opener last night. They could have played better, but in the end, the "W" is all that matters.

I have been feeling sick for the past few days. It's hard for me to eat anything, because when I do, I can't eat very much, then I feel sick. I don't know what the deal is. I have to eat very slowly and then force myself to eat and keep it down. It's kind of scary.

Good morning to you all!! I hope everyone had a good weekend. As for me, I had one crazy weekend. I won't get into details, but I laughed, I cried, I prayed. And I feel like I am in a better place spiritualy. And I also feel like God is happy with my work and progress.

In other news I got to watch some football. The only game I am interested in tho, is tonight. It's the Opener of the Vikings!!! I am really looing forward to it.

I just have to get through one more day. Then it's off to another long weekend! I'm not sure what I amgoing to do with myself. I know one thing, I will finally get to sleep in. Well, not too late, then it just feels like I have wasted a good part of the day. Maybe I'll clean my car, maybe I'll clean my room, maybe I won't do a damn thing. That's probably what will end up happening. Have a good weekend everyone, and I will be back for another new post on Monday.

Very busy today. Lot's of work to do. But on the plus side, I have Friday off again!! Maybe I'll get to see someone special that day. We'll see.

I'm sure everyone already knows, but for those of you who don't......The Crocodile Hunter has passed on. I would like to offer my condolences to the surviving family of Steve Irwin. It is a shame we will never hear the infamous "Crikey" again.

I truly thought he would have been taken out by a crocodile, or some highly deadly snake. It's too bad that he had to be taken out buy a sting ray.

Let us offer the Irwin family our prayers, and my God be with Steve and his surviving family.

Why is it, when two people break up, that everyone around them seems to know that it is for the best? I ask, How do they know that it is the best thing? Most of them don't know the details, and really have no idea if it is even close to the best thing. Oh well, I guess it just takes time (another popular quote from those same people).