More of the same today. Not sure what to feel, or how to deal with the feelings I have. But I found out that it isn't me! That is kind of a relief. But it is still hard to deal with. I'm still waiting for God to show me his plan for me. One minute I think I have everything figured out, then it's like someone else is telling me different. I'm not too sure what is really my feelings or what God is showing me. But all I can say, is that I am still confused. I know I still love, and I know I still care, but I don't get any of those feelings back. And I haven't for a very long time. And that is causing me to think the things that I have been.